By Mahjabeen

MY EARLIEST MEMORY

Our life is a mixture of so many incidents, but not all of them become a memory. “A memory” that seizes a part of your brain, holding a lesson that pinches you every time you get close to it. And not only incidents, but some people also become a memory that never dies even after they are gone. I have such a memory as a person, who has left this world, leaving behind “A memory” that has taught all of his friends and Family a lesson about living a happy life.

“Khurram Bhai”, My cousin, not less than a brother, a caring big brother. A person who we thought is the happiest person alive, because we never got to see even a little sign of despair on his face ever. A kind-hearted person, always ready to help everyone around, never caring for his own loss, but giving out as much as he could to the people he knows, and also to the people who were totally unknown to him. He had the passion to do something for people, to make his life worth living. Due to such amazing personality of him, nobody could simply turn around without appreciating him or getting impressed. That lively nature made a huge impact of his family and friends too, as nothing could ever be imagined to do without his opinion. 

When we were little kids, he used to visit our place to play with us, tell us interesting stories, bring “CHEEZ” for us, taught us how to install games on computer, and along with that, teaching us all the good things, advising to be a responsible and trustworthy child of our parents. Although he himself was just 20 years old at that time, but we never ever saw him doing kind of things that could have brought any kind of tension to his family. Sports and music was something he loved doing. He had a very beautiful voice, used to sing different songs, entertaining people around, making them smile and laugh. He loved to offer “NAATS” too, that one Naat he was always seen offering was “Huzoor (S.A.W) aesa koi imtehaan hojaye, Salaam k lie haazir ghulaam hojaye”. Khurram bhai, such impressive personality, we never thought could be vanished somewhere. I was one of those, who thought that Khurram bhai has a very bright future, as he is a good student, a good employ, and he is simply a mentor for all us as he always encouraged me, appreciating my dreams. He really became a roll ideal for me. Time rolled and he turned 25, I still remember that day when we all were watching Pak/Ind match, nd suddenly he felt pain on his back but he didn’t complain. But then the pain got worst and he went home. Some days later, we heard news that he got admitted in Hospital, doctors are suspicious for something. Then a month later, he was diagnosed with Blood cancer. But what a Man he was, we all were crying like hell but he was smiling and laughing giving us all hope by patting on our back. The very next month, on the 3^rd may 2011, he left this world and departed for a much better place. That day was unbelievable for us, it was very sudden. Because according to doctors, he could be cured. We all had our hopes high, then how could he be gone? Then later we realized that he was actually on the edge of death, still he wasn’t complaining for anything. Instead he was the one who gave us this hope that he will live. And this was the only thing he lied about. Later we found pictures and videos he made alone on his deathbed, waving, and saying goodbyes to everyone.

 His death wasn’t his death only, our hopes died, our perception about the reality of life died, and a new one was born. I thought, we all have a long life, a lot of time there is. Now I know, that the time is the only less thing we have.  And GOD can call us anytime and what worries me is that, would I be able to gather enough good deeds to impress my lord, in such short period of life? May be I can, but I need to polish my personality like that of Khurram bhai. I know, Why GOD has called him so early, because he must have had all the keys to pass though this world and go to the next level. I am labeling this memory “An earliest one” cos’ it remains alive with us in the form of those examples he marked for us to follow and achieve the real goal of life i.e to become a role model for others to follow.